So for starters, I just realized that I'm a mean person. I really cursed the crud out of my ex without realizing that he wasn't ready all along for a relationship. Doesn't make me any less vindictive, but I guess I can apologize on my part. Just don't know how to on the fact I cursed and blocked and deleted on almost every form of contact I have with him known to man. It's a long story, but I want to be short and sweet...
Then my friend and I (since I'm not allowed to go party on a Saturday night) decided to goof off at my house and watch online videos when I came across a guy that goes my the alias Swoozie. Watching his video on "Flirtationships" opened my eyes to the fact that I'm not the only one in the world, but I have to realize that I need to sympathize more. Until then, I went into the world of ParaDox, building up that wall again. It's been a while, but the wall is closing up soon and only my friends have the privilege to see it and empathize its pains and turmoils. I just wished I saw the video before it was too late. Now I just want to apologize before I can move on. In the meantime, I want to make as many friends as I can and get ready for a new chapter very soon. College.
Will I date any time soon? No. But I will continue to be a goof ball until then. :)
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